I know I used to write along the following subject a few years ago on and off. I even started a different blog (The Birth of Love ) to try and somewhat keep my life separate. But tbh I don’t even know if that blog is still active/available. Part of me hopes my posts are … Continue reading Everybody’s Talkin’ ‘Bout Heaven Like They Just Can’t Wait To Go/I Ain’t Convinced
I received an annoying email from my boss this morning and have been in a bitchy mood since. First off it was @ 8 something on a Saturday morning. Slow your roll ding dong. Nothing good work related happens that early on the weekend. Next I see the subject line ‘Status quo for now’ and … Continue reading It’s Like The More Money We Come Across The More Problems We See
I guess a depression is the simplest way to describe it. But it’s not simple. There are so many layers to it. I’m exhausted. I feel like everything is overwhelming. I use earplugs constantly because just people talking to me is to much stimulation lately. My kids walking on the floor like regular human beings … Continue reading When You Feel So Tired But You Can’t Sleep Stuck In Reverse
I got home almost a week ago. Just taking some time to absorb it all and get back into my life. I had really thought I’d be leaving the hospital with answers. Solutions. But no. Instead I have more tests to do. And more questions. The doctors haven’t outright said they are more confused than … Continue reading Don’t Ever Think That It Can’t Happen To You, You Gotta Stand On Your Own Two Win Or Lose
Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached
It’s just so much. I can tell you right here and now I don’t have the words to describe properly what I want to say, but I’ll start with; it’s just so much. So many feelings, to many emotions. Not necessarily good emotions either. Hate, sorrow, anger, all mixed in in such large amounts. To … Continue reading Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1
I just lost part of my most valuable piece of jewelry. As we all know I’m not a millionaire or anything close, so I don’t have a huge collection of jewelry. I have a bunch of cheap costume jewelry that was bought at places like Walmart or Superstore by my kids for Christmas over the … Continue reading Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast
We are back at home now and have been for about a week. The fire is still considered out of control at 800 hectares and I can see some of it some nights in the distance, but that is not what this post is about. As usual, something new and additionally stressful happened last week. … Continue reading The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town
Just when I thought things couldn’t possibly get any worse for a single person in one lifetime… like common God, this happens: I put the kids to bed last night and crawled into bed myself so excited for a week off planning to do absolutely NOTHING for this upcoming week, when I started to do … Continue reading She’s On Fire, Put Her Out, As A Matter Of Fact, Take Her Out, Cause She’s On Fire
I had my PET scan this week. Normally the PET scan is used to detect cancer, so I’m happy to announce I don’t have cancer. That’s one good thing going for me. But after my scan I was radioactive for the day which gave me a headache 🤕. I had to fast before the scan … Continue reading Who’s Gonna Walk You Through The Dark Side Of The Morning?
How I Lost My Chains 