If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

He called. Finally. Right in the middle of my Canada Day family gathering with everyone over at my place. On a line where I could barely hear anything, but it didn't matter because he called. So I can put to rest some imaginary situations my very active mind had thought up in the last few … Continue reading If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

I’m At A Payphone Trying To Call Home All Of My Change I Spent On You/Baby It’s All Wrong Where Are The Plans We Made For Two

Nothing. They say no news is good news, but that's the biggest pile of shit ever. It's only been like just over 48 hours, so I'm trying to be patient, but I guess it's not a strong point of mine. I started off my day yesterday researching where to even start looking for where to … Continue reading I’m At A Payphone Trying To Call Home All Of My Change I Spent On You/Baby It’s All Wrong Where Are The Plans We Made For Two

Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done

So I took the kids to the park yesterday and as Z went off on the slide, Little E and I had our "conversation" The whole "Why doesn't Dad live with us?" question that he had asked me earlier in the day... I thought I had mentally prepped my answer, thought it through, and I … Continue reading Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done

By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta Do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share. My Grandma apparently specified that all the … Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta Do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Now

Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do. 

Last night at dinner, Little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like … Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do. 

B*tch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

$36,408.00 That's how much E currently owes me in back pay for child support. I've been trying to sort this thing out with my lawyer for what feels like forever now, and I feel like (hopefully) we're nearing the finish line with this whole divorce. To be honest, it could've been much worse than how … Continue reading B*tch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I'd like to say that once I got back to Canada things got better fast. But that would be a complete lie. It was hard. There were so many stressful factors I didn't even consider when thinking the whole "leave E" thing through. My parents let us stay with them for which I am so … Continue reading Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

So today I was back at the airport for the first time since flying back from Kenya 3 years ago. I felt like a deja vue kinda thing happening. I had to head out there for work to meet some of the guys we'd recruited for work and it was just a causal meet and … Continue reading I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

I booked flights for about 10 days out. They were the right combination of cheapest and nearest in date. Well they weren't cheap, but I just wanted to get out of there ASAP. Then, after I booked the flights and paid, I sent an email to my mom letting her know our itinerary and just … Continue reading Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double

I spent the next couple of days in what can only be described as a fog. I was there. I was alive. But I was definitely not thinking clearly. Everything was blurry. Fuzzy. I couldn't concentrate on any of the mundane day to day things that needed to be done. The kids needed to be … Continue reading Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double