It’s just so much. I can tell you right here and now I don’t have the words to describe properly what I want to say, but I’ll start with; it’s just so much. So many feelings, to many emotions. Not necessarily good emotions either. Hate, sorrow, anger, all mixed in in such large amounts. To … Continue reading Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1
So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears
Yesterday out of the blue E sent a text to see how the kids are and to ask me to say hi to them. They haven't really talked much in months, and the last time they saw him was at Christmas. By now, I thought I was over E. and as far as our relationship … Continue reading I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face
1,652 days from the day I got married and the day I decided to leave E. (Better than 72 days but still not impressive by any means) 1,762 days from the day I left and started this whole divorce process until yesterday, the day I got that email I thought would never come saying: In … Continue reading My Mind Runs Wild To Comprehend What No Mind On Earth Could Understand
I'm using my break at work to finally write a decent post. First I was going to apologize for not writing more, but in all honesty, I've grown so much in this past month, to a point that I won't apologize for any action (or inaction on my part). My life is hectic and busy … Continue reading You Said You’d Care For Me / Said You’d Be There For Me / Give To Me, Why Won’t You Live For Me? / You Said You’d Cry For Me / You Gotta Be, Nice For What?
So my house is up for sale. The listing went live on Jan 25th (last Thursday) and there was one showing booked for Sunday that got cancelled last-minute, and now another one for tomorrow. So I'm feeling hopeful that at least people are interested in the place enough to want to come see it in … Continue reading God’s Plan I Hold Back, Sometimes I Won’t / Still Bad Things It’s A Lot Of Bad Things That They Wishin’ On Me
So as promised, well not even promised but told to E yesterday, the kids and I called him last night to video chat. During which he proceeded to inform me that his Dad's burial is on the same day as my Grandma's. 365 days in a year, and yeppers, it'll be the same day, Aug 26th … Continue reading Am I Dead? Or Is This One Of Those Dreams? Those Horrible Dreams That Seem Like They Last Forever?
I received a message from E letting me know that his dad had passed away last night, as well as one from my brother-in-law (because according to the law we are still married so in laws it is. I can honestly say... I didn't really care. This man for all intents and purposes tried to … Continue reading Cause In The Night I Hear Him Talk The Coldest Story Ever Told Somewhere Far Along This Road He Lost His Soul
Oh. My. God. (Becky look at her butt... Just kidding) E is just so frustrating. He was in town this weekend off from work and asked to see the kids. Sure, that would give me a chance to catch up on the house work since my house was a disaster zone after my nieces slept over and … Continue reading Don’t Come ‘Round Here No More What On Earth Did You Do That For / You’re An Embarrassment
Once E was served with divorce papers, he called me freaking out. It took over two months for my lawyer and I to get everything straightened out on paper and all the proper documents filled out, before he was actually notified on April 29, 2014. All the time between my flying back from Kenya and … Continue reading I’m Friends With The Monster That’s Under My Bed. Get Along With The Voices Inside Of My Head