So I got an unexpected call today. I was at work at the swimming pool called me. Little E was on a field trip (and will be on the same one for the next three Wednesday's) for swimming lessons. They spend 30 minutes for lessons and then have 30 minutes for free time. Well, they … Continue reading I’m Going Deep, In Over My Head I Want To Be Caught In The Rush, Lost In The Flow, In Over My Head I Want To Go
Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends … Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time
Oh Kay. So as I'm sure some of you in the western hemisphere have heard if you keep up on stupid random celebrity gossip, Ellen Page (of Juno fame, and maybe some other stuff not too sure, but that's just my favorite movie of her's and probably up on my top 20 favorite movie list … Continue reading Don’t Believe The Lies They Feed You
The other night I woke up from another one of my very real dreams I've been having the last few months/years and was hit with the stark realization that I have in fact been on a few lame dates. I know I've complained the entire duration of my blog that I've never been on a … Continue reading Let’s Go Back Back To The Beginning / I’m Shedding Shedding Every Color Trying To Find A Pigment Of Truth
When you sit back and think about it, we all had to come from somewhere. Someone somehow we are all connected. I know it's not a thought we all consider on the daily, but logically, this earth didn't just appear yesterday functioning at this level of consciousness and efficiency that we are at today. Which … Continue reading It’s The End Of The World As We Know It, And I Feel Fine
I've come to the conclusion in my life for now, that every time I've attempted to produce love, in any kind, it ends in a more broken version of myself. Maybe, and most likely this is because the men I've been showing my version of love to have not been in a receptive state in … Continue reading Take Control Of Your Mind And Just Meditate And Let Your Soul Just Gravitate To The Love
2019. Here I am. Taken me a while to.... not necessarily find the time to do this recap of the last year of my life, but more specifically find the desire to share what I've accomplished and overcome as well as my shortcomings in 2018. So where to start. I guess the most obvious place … Continue reading Callin It Quits Now Baby I’m A Wreck
Yesterday was my birthday. I feel like that's all that needs to be said. Since my day was as lame as that sentence. I "celebrated" 31 years of life by just making it through the day. No cake. No gifts. No flowers. No nothing. No one even told me Happy Birthday to my face until … Continue reading We Gon’ Party Like It’s Your Birthday And You Know We Don’t Give A Fuck It’s Not Your Birthday!
So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.
Those phone calls threw me for a major loop. I've been doing my best in moving on from K. Settling in here in Kelowna, trying to forget. But those calls brought back all the memories I was trying to put behind me. All the pain and feelings of not being good enough. So I needed … Continue reading I Put My Feelings On Safety So I Don’t Go Shootin’ Where Your Heart Be