I’m Going Deep, In Over My Head I Want To Be Caught In The Rush, Lost In The Flow, In Over My Head I Want To Go

So I got an unexpected call today. I was at work at the swimming pool called me. Little E was on a field trip (and will be on the same one for the next three Wednesday's) for swimming lessons. They spend 30 minutes for lessons and then have 30 minutes for free time. Well, they … Continue reading I’m Going Deep, In Over My Head I Want To Be Caught In The Rush, Lost In The Flow, In Over My Head I Want To Go

Let’s Go Back Back To The Beginning / I’m Shedding Shedding Every Color Trying To Find A Pigment Of Truth

The other night I woke up from another one of my very real dreams I've been having the last few months/years and was hit with the stark realization that I have in fact been on a few lame dates. I know I've complained the entire duration of my blog that I've never been on a … Continue reading Let’s Go Back Back To The Beginning / I’m Shedding Shedding Every Color Trying To Find A Pigment Of Truth

It’s The End Of The World As We Know It, And I Feel Fine

When you sit back and think about it, we all had to come from somewhere. Someone somehow we are all connected. I know it's not a thought we all consider on the daily, but logically, this earth didn't just appear yesterday functioning at this level of consciousness and efficiency that we are at today. Which … Continue reading It’s The End Of The World As We Know It, And I Feel Fine

Take Control Of Your Mind And Just Meditate And Let Your Soul Just Gravitate To The Love

I've come to the conclusion in my life for now, that every time I've attempted to produce love, in any kind, it ends in a more broken version of myself. Maybe, and most likely this is because the men I've been showing my version of love to have not been in a receptive state in … Continue reading Take Control Of Your Mind And Just Meditate And Let Your Soul Just Gravitate To The Love

We Gon’ Party Like It’s Your Birthday And You Know We Don’t Give A Fuck It’s Not Your Birthday!

Yesterday was my birthday. I feel like that's all that needs to be said. Since my day was as lame as that sentence. I "celebrated" 31 years of life by just making it through the day. No cake. No gifts. No flowers. No nothing. No one even told me Happy Birthday to my face until … Continue reading We Gon’ Party Like It’s Your Birthday And You Know We Don’t Give A Fuck It’s Not Your Birthday!

So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.

So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.

I Put My Feelings On Safety So I Don’t Go Shootin’ Where Your Heart Be

Those phone calls threw me for a major loop. I've been doing my best in moving on from K. Settling in here in Kelowna, trying to forget. But those calls brought back all the memories I was trying to put behind me. All the pain and feelings of not being good enough. So I needed … Continue reading I Put My Feelings On Safety So I Don’t Go Shootin’ Where Your Heart Be