Today an ad popped up on my Instagram about preparing wills. This is something I have been purposefully avoiding my entire life. Not because I'm afraid to die because of death and all that jazz, but because in my will, I will undoubtedly have to name a Guardian for my kids. And I have no … Continue reading Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?
A few weeks ago I was laying in bed and relaxing before going to sleep and calming my breathing and thought patterns as has become my habit lately. Also something that has become part of my life is thinking of K too much. I try to avoid it as much as possible. I pushed thought … Continue reading Thoughts
Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends … Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time
I've come to the understanding within myself that I'm not where I'd like to be in my life. Which, on it's own is not that big a deal you'd think right? Just go out and change, or get what you want etc. and you'd be all good C right? Except that where I want to … Continue reading Why’d You Have To Wait? Where Were You? Just A Little Late You Found Me Why’d You Have To Wait To Find Me?
So where to begin. I feel like ranting about every little thing in my life, which I won't, however easy it would be. My lawyer contacted me saying E didn't actually sign the papers like he said he did (which I think I mentioned already). On top of that, he denied me ever telling/discussing the … Continue reading I’m Not Angry, I’m Just Saying Sometimes Goodbye Is A Second Chance
This is quite possibly shaping up to be on par with the shittiest week ever. First (actually I don’t even remember what happened first anymore, but) Z got the chicken pox. So that threw a wrench in my week like nobody’s business. She obviously couldn’t be at daycare, plus I had to pull Little E … Continue reading So You’re Still Thinking Of Me/We Have So Much In Common We Argue All The Time
So I went for a follow up visit to my Naturopath this morning. And like she asks every 4 weeks when I'm there, she questioned how life is... how are my stress levels, what's new, etc. And like every previous visit she is shocked by what is going on in my life and how there … Continue reading She Holds The Hand That Holds Her Down She Will Rise Above Don’t Call Me Daughter Not Fit To
You know what they say, picture or it didn't happen 😏. I meant to post yesterday, but just ended up being so busy with life that, well, here I am. I did originally by the flowers for myself, as promised but since yesterday was Z's birthday I decided to gift them to her by the … Continue reading Give Your All To Me I’ll Give My All To You Your My End And My Beginning Even When I Lose I’m Winning
So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got … Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No
I've never felt so outright disrespected probably ever, at least that I can remember. W? He was killed. E? Never knew what he was doing. But this? This is K actively being... well just awful. So the mess with K? Well I've been working behind the scene trying to get word to him. Making sure … Continue reading Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit