How to explain the unexplainable. Sunday night I made homemade spaghetti and meatballs with ceaser salad for dinner and the kids loved it. Everything was all good. So I decided to send the leftovers with them to daycare for lunch the next day. I asked Z to get out 2 containers for me to divide … Continue reading I Wake Up In The Basement I’m So Hungry/ I Must Be Here Sleepwalking
Tag: Paranoia
I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself
Monday I had a friend over and I got so drunk. Something I've done less than a handful of times in my entire life. Drinking is really not something I find desirable shall we say. Anyways, life has been stressing me out more than normal and so I just let it all go. Nothing crazy … Continue reading I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself
God’s Plan I Hold Back, Sometimes I Won’t / Still Bad Things It’s A Lot Of Bad Things That They Wishin’ On Me
So my house is up for sale. The listing went live on Jan 25th (last Thursday) and there was one showing booked for Sunday that got cancelled last-minute, and now another one for tomorrow. So I'm feeling hopeful that at least people are interested in the place enough to want to come see it in … Continue reading God’s Plan I Hold Back, Sometimes I Won’t / Still Bad Things It’s A Lot Of Bad Things That They Wishin’ On Me
Cause For Every Lie I Tell Them, They Tell Me Three This Is How The World Works Now All He Thinks About Is Me
Whomp there it is (Whomp there it is) Ahh I need emoji's on my computer's keyboard so I could follow that up with musical notes or something. Anyways. My shit gets shittier (Don't correct my grammar, let's just all assume at this point I know I'm making up words, it's called artistic licence), as it's … Continue reading Cause For Every Lie I Tell Them, They Tell Me Three This Is How The World Works Now All He Thinks About Is Me
I’m Going Off The Rails On A Crazy Train I Know That Things Are Going Wrong For Me
What the fuck. My Grandpa just made a pass at me. What the fuck. What the fuck. I'm living the fucken twilight zone you guys. I'm in town for my Grandma's funeral and earlier today he asked me if I was still taking my 'medication' and I remembered that my mom had told both him … Continue reading I’m Going Off The Rails On A Crazy Train I Know That Things Are Going Wrong For Me
Am I Dead? Or Is This One Of Those Dreams? Those Horrible Dreams That Seem Like They Last Forever?
So as promised, well not even promised but told to E yesterday, the kids and I called him last night to video chat. During which he proceeded to inform me that his Dad's burial is on the same day as my Grandma's. 365 days in a year, and yeppers, it'll be the same day, Aug 26th … Continue reading Am I Dead? Or Is This One Of Those Dreams? Those Horrible Dreams That Seem Like They Last Forever?
Cause In The Night I Hear Him Talk The Coldest Story Ever Told Somewhere Far Along This Road He Lost His Soul
I received a message from E letting me know that his dad had passed away last night, as well as one from my brother-in-law (because according to the law we are still married so in laws it is. I can honestly say... I didn't really care. This man for all intents and purposes tried to … Continue reading Cause In The Night I Hear Him Talk The Coldest Story Ever Told Somewhere Far Along This Road He Lost His Soul
She’s All Through, Life’s Not Blowing Her Kisses Thanks To You
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CbaxKcxtPY4 Woooooow. I had an interesting night to say the least lol. It started Friday night when I had my 4 nieces sleepover and it was chaotic with 6 kids in my little townhouse (that's being kind). Then I drove them the half hour - 45 minutes back to their house during which we played … Continue reading She’s All Through, Life’s Not Blowing Her Kisses Thanks To You
Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done
So I took the kids to the park yesterday and as Z went off on the slide, Little E and I had our "conversation" The whole "Why doesn't Dad live with us?" question that he had asked me earlier in the day... I thought I had mentally prepped my answer, thought it through, and I … Continue reading Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done
I’m Friends With The Monster That’s Under My Bed. Get Along With The Voices Inside Of My Head
Once E was served with divorce papers, he called me freaking out. It took over two months for my lawyer and I to get everything straightened out on paper and all the proper documents filled out, before he was actually notified on April 29, 2014. All the time between my flying back from Kenya and … Continue reading I’m Friends With The Monster That’s Under My Bed. Get Along With The Voices Inside Of My Head
How I Lost My Chains 