Tag: pain

No Strings Attached

Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached →

Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast

I just lost part of my most valuable piece of jewelry. As we all know I’m not a millionaire or anything close, so I don’t have a huge collection of jewelry. I have a bunch of cheap costume jewelry that was bought at places like Walmart or Superstore by my kids for Christmas over the … Continue reading Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast →

The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town

We are back at home now and have been for about a week. The fire is still considered out of control at 800 hectares and I can see some of it some nights in the distance, but that is not what this post is about. As usual, something new and additionally stressful happened last week. … Continue reading The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town →

She’s On Fire, Put Her Out, As A Matter Of Fact, Take Her Out, Cause She’s On Fire

Just when I thought things couldn’t possibly get any worse for a single person in one lifetime… like common God, this happens: I put the kids to bed last night and crawled into bed myself so excited for a week off planning to do absolutely NOTHING for this upcoming week, when I started to do … Continue reading She’s On Fire, Put Her Out, As A Matter Of Fact, Take Her Out, Cause She’s On Fire →

If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye

😶‍🌫️ There isn’t really a good emoji to describe how I currently feel. Mainly because I currently feel suicidal. I’ve been on my new medication for two weeks exactly now, doubling the dosage one week in, and it has been messing with me. At first I thought oh I’m just not feeling myself because work … Continue reading If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye →

I’m Checkin’ Out To The Heavens Above Punched In The Teeth, Teeth By Love

So, Vancouver was… well it was there. I mean we were there and back in two days so not much exciting to report. My teeth are seriously still the main event. They hurt like nobody’s business. I can’t chew to save my life still. Every time I happen to close my teeth to hard or … Continue reading I’m Checkin’ Out To The Heavens Above Punched In The Teeth, Teeth By Love →

I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again

I don’t know how people get into successful relationships nowadays. The only way I can meet someone in pandemic times is if they are a parent to the kids of your kids friends. And all of them are married and in happy relationships. So here I am, 7 years after I left my marriage and … Continue reading I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again →

Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It was awful. It's been awful. My seizures have been getting worse lately to the point my mom came and stayed with the kids and I for the last week because I've been having them every few days and I'm exhausted. But on Sunday, something new happened. Normally my seizures have ALWAYS happened in my … Continue reading Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong →

There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

So I've been seizing. Lots. To much. I had a seizure once in November, which was the first one I was aware of in what I think was close to a year, then now almost constantly every two weeks since mid December. There may have been more in there that I'm not sure of but … Continue reading There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change →