So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got … Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No
I've never felt so outright disrespected probably ever, at least that I can remember. W? He was killed. E? Never knew what he was doing. But this? This is K actively being... well just awful. So the mess with K? Well I've been working behind the scene trying to get word to him. Making sure … Continue reading Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit
I just wanna cry. At myself. At my continuous dumb decisions. At the world. At men. At life right now. I'm literally overwhelmed. And crying as I type, yet I can't pinpoint the exact reason why because so many fucked up things continue to occur. I thought I was done with K after that letter … Continue reading A Lady In The Street But A Freak In The Bed
As we were preparing to get married, E shared a "tradition" from back home that he wanted us to partake in. This might be difficult to explain as it's regarding names and I try to avoid using real name here for anonymity sake, as well as the fact that the "tradition" turned out to be … Continue reading Wake Me Up When It’s All Over. When I’m Wiser And I’m Older.
I fucken messed up. Majorly. Not just something simple that I could fix with an apology. But I messed up someone's everyday living. I didn't tell the whole story about last Friday with K and I. Yes, K came over and told me he loved me for the first time. Yes, he said no strings … Continue reading Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life