This Girl Is Half His Age Don’t Stand So Close To Me

I made a mistake. As a mom. I didn't realize how my comment would affect Little E until the other day I went to give him a hug and kiss, which is pretty standard in our house and he turned his head so I could only kiss his cheek as opposed to his lips. So … Continue reading This Girl Is Half His Age Don’t Stand So Close To Me →

I Wake Up In The Basement I’m So Hungry/ I Must Be Here Sleepwalking

How to explain the unexplainable. Sunday night I made homemade spaghetti and meatballs with ceaser salad for dinner and the kids loved it. Everything was all good. So I decided to send the leftovers with them to daycare for lunch the next day. I asked Z to get out 2 containers for me to divide … Continue reading I Wake Up In The Basement I’m So Hungry/ I Must Be Here Sleepwalking →

The End

Hello all. Thanks for taking the time out of your lives over the last year and a bit to learn about mine. Unfortunately life is just to shitty to even find the desire to write and update you guys anymore so I've decided to shutdown the whole blogging part of who I am for now. … Continue reading The End →

I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground

My Grandpa has been calling. I haven't answer the phone because, well because I didn't want to talk to him. He first left a voicemail maybe 2 weeks ago now. But this morning when my phone rang, I didn't recognize the number so I picked up. Turns out, he had got in touch with his … Continue reading I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground →

Are We Getting Closer Or Are We Just Getting More Lost

I'm so upset! In my big air of productivity during the last week, I managed to finally get my act together to change Little E's name. Which you would think would be a great thing right? Since I've only been waiting a couple years to do it right? Well being the idiot that I am … Continue reading Are We Getting Closer Or Are We Just Getting More Lost →

I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No

So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got … Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No →

Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit

I've never felt so outright disrespected probably ever, at least that I can remember. W? He was killed. E? Never knew what he was doing. But this? This is K actively being... well just awful. So the mess with K? Well I've been working behind the scene trying to get word to him. Making sure … Continue reading Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit →

A Lady In The Street But A Freak In The Bed

I just wanna cry. At myself. At my continuous dumb decisions. At the world. At men. At life right now. I'm literally overwhelmed. And crying as I type, yet I can't pinpoint the exact reason why because so many fucked up things continue to occur. I thought I was done with K after that letter … Continue reading A Lady In The Street But A Freak In The Bed →

Wake Me Up When It’s All Over. When I’m Wiser And I’m Older.

As we were preparing to get married, E shared a "tradition" from back home that he wanted us to partake in. This might be difficult to explain as it's regarding names and I try to avoid using real name here for anonymity sake, as well as the fact that the "tradition" turned out to be … Continue reading Wake Me Up When It’s All Over. When I’m Wiser And I’m Older. →

Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

I fucken messed up. Majorly. Not just something simple that I could fix with an apology. But I messed up someone's everyday living. I didn't tell the whole story about last Friday with K and I. Yes, K came over and told me he loved me for the first time. Yes, he said no strings … Continue reading Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life →