Shooting Star Across The Desert Sky The Sun Is Bleeding Into My Eye I Can’t Help But Notice The Way You Talk

So I’ll be heading to Vancouver this week. My life has been full of tests. 3 different kinds of blood work. An ECG. Now I have to head to Vancouver since the Doctor from the epilepsy clinic wants me to have a special type of MRI, and they only have the machine for it at … Continue reading Shooting Star Across The Desert Sky The Sun Is Bleeding Into My Eye I Can’t Help But Notice The Way You Talk

There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

So I've been seizing. Lots. To much. I had a seizure once in November, which was the first one I was aware of in what I think was close to a year, then now almost constantly every two weeks since mid December. There may have been more in there that I'm not sure of but … Continue reading There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off

It has been a stressful few weeks here for me in my house. Last summer I lent my car to my sister for a minute while she was her to drive to my grandpas. Fine whatever. But she brought it back with the air conditioner broken. So I left it as is, since it was … Continue reading It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off

I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

My Mama Loves, She Loves Me She Gets Down On Her Knees And Hugs Me She Loves Me Like A Rock She Rocks Me Like The Rock Of Ages

Totally not the topic of my post but I’m at Starbucks writing this morning, since I’m meeting with a friend. Normally when I come and write here, I order my drink in a porcelain cup, you know to save the environment and not use a plastic cup and lid. So I order as per usual, … Continue reading My Mama Loves, She Loves Me She Gets Down On Her Knees And Hugs Me She Loves Me Like A Rock She Rocks Me Like The Rock Of Ages

I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

Heads up, on Little E’s iPad again so prep for an awful lay out since I’m not tech savvy enough to attempt to figure out how to fix this. Each time I click return to start a new paragraph it starts a new post instead 🤔. Okay, so last night.... last night last night last … Continue reading I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

There’s A Time That I Remember That I Never Felt So Lost When I Felt All Of The Hatred Was To Powerful To Stop

This past weekend I packed up the kiddos and drove back to my parents house to surprise them for the weekend. It was my moms birthday on the 12th, and since we won't be back for Christmas, I figured we were due for a visit. I got the Thursday off, and Monday was a holiday … Continue reading There’s A Time That I Remember That I Never Felt So Lost When I Felt All Of The Hatred Was To Powerful To Stop

Ya Ever Feel Like Your Train Of Thoughts Been Derailed? That’s When You Press On

I had a very memorable dream last night. I was invited on a trip by a person, who was in one body, but in my dream I knew that physical body represented many figures in my life. The ones who stood out the most being K, then my mother, then my older sister R and … Continue reading Ya Ever Feel Like Your Train Of Thoughts Been Derailed? That’s When You Press On

There’s No Way I Can Save You ‘Cause I Need To Be Saved Too

Today I found myself sitting on a pile of darks while the white's spun around in the washing machine. Never in my life have I seemed so pathetic to even myself. Sinking down into a pile of dirty laundry filled with Little E's sweaty soccer uniform and dirty towels that I've used to squirt all … Continue reading There’s No Way I Can Save You ‘Cause I Need To Be Saved Too

So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

So we did it. In such a new way we achieved both a beginning and an end. At least from my perspective. Each new chance at this has been expanding my mind to new levels. Even that phrase as such is misleading now. My mind. Because once you reach this level of knowledge, you can … Continue reading So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be