I Got A Notion To Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

As it stands now, I hate Mother's Day. This will be my 7th Mother's Day, and I've yet to enjoy a single one. Yes, I've been a single parent for 3 of them already, coming up on my forth this Sunday, and I'm actually dreading it. When married to E, he never understood the whole … Continue reading I Got A Notion To Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I'd like to say that once I got back to Canada things got better fast. But that would be a complete lie. It was hard. There were so many stressful factors I didn't even consider when thinking the whole "leave E" thing through. My parents let us stay with them for which I am so … Continue reading Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

So today I was back at the airport for the first time since flying back from Kenya 3 years ago. I felt like a deja vue kinda thing happening. I had to head out there for work to meet some of the guys we'd recruited for work and it was just a causal meet and … Continue reading I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

I booked flights for about 10 days out. They were the right combination of cheapest and nearest in date. Well they weren't cheap, but I just wanted to get out of there ASAP. Then, after I booked the flights and paid, I sent an email to my mom letting her know our itinerary and just … Continue reading Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double

I spent the next couple of days in what can only be described as a fog. I was there. I was alive. But I was definitely not thinking clearly. Everything was blurry. Fuzzy. I couldn't concentrate on any of the mundane day to day things that needed to be done. The kids needed to be … Continue reading Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double