We Need To Take It Back In Time When Music Made Us All Unite Money Can’t Buy Us Happiness Can We All Slow Down And Enjoy Right Now

Lately I've been wondering how people gather enough courage to run off and start a new life. Legitimate question in my mind. I figure now would be as good a time if any to run away, and I'm just done with my life as is. So, that being said, how do people gather the strength … Continue reading We Need To Take It Back In Time When Music Made Us All Unite Money Can’t Buy Us Happiness Can We All Slow Down And Enjoy Right Now

Cause For Every Lie I Tell Them, They Tell Me Three This Is How The World Works Now All He Thinks About Is Me

Whomp there it is (Whomp there it is) Ahh I need emoji's on my computer's keyboard so I could follow that up with musical notes or something. Anyways. My shit gets shittier (Don't correct my grammar, let's just all assume at this point I know I'm making up words, it's called artistic licence), as it's … Continue reading Cause For Every Lie I Tell Them, They Tell Me Three This Is How The World Works Now All He Thinks About Is Me

Through Waters Uncharted My Soul Will Embark I’ll Follow Your Voice Straight Into The Dark And If From The Course You Intend I Depart Speak To The Sails Of My Wandering Heart

No "new year, new me" junk in my trunk. I'm a woman built on all my failures, and all my triumphs. I didn't change dramatically overnight, no one does. I've blossomed over all my days and years on this earth to become who I am today. Someone who still struggles with this life, but I'm … Continue reading Through Waters Uncharted My Soul Will Embark I’ll Follow Your Voice Straight Into The Dark And If From The Course You Intend I Depart Speak To The Sails Of My Wandering Heart

I’m A Sucker For Pain, It Ain’t Nothing But Pain You Just Fuckin’ Complain, You Ain’t Tough As You Claim

Alexander and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. Just insert my name instead of Alex's up there, and switch day for... I dunno, year? And I feel it'd be right on point with my life instead of a cute little children's book. I've just felt like giving up lately, for no reason in … Continue reading I’m A Sucker For Pain, It Ain’t Nothing But Pain You Just Fuckin’ Complain, You Ain’t Tough As You Claim

Such A Lonely Day And It’s Mine The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life

So, my lawyer is now also not responding to my emails, which means we will be closing in on 4 years this February as far as how long this divorce is taking. I was only married for 4.5 years before I filed for divorced so this has officially become so ridiculous that I feel I … Continue reading Such A Lonely Day And It’s Mine The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life

Don’t Think Cause I Understand I Care Don’t Think Cause I’m Talking We’re Friends

As much as I know y'all are attempting to help, joining a group or stressing less... is not going to cure a neurological disease. I can't just 'talk' my epilepsy away. I can't just meditate/relax and and expect it will be fine. It's like you all treat it like mild depression or some shit. This … Continue reading Don’t Think Cause I Understand I Care Don’t Think Cause I’m Talking We’re Friends

I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground

My Grandpa has been calling. I haven't answer the phone because, well because I didn't want to talk to him. He first left a voicemail maybe 2 weeks ago now. But this morning when my phone rang, I didn't recognize the number so I picked up. Turns out, he had got in touch with his … Continue reading I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground

Been Chasing Dreams, But I Never Slept I Got A New Attitude And A Lease On Life And Some Peace Of Mind Seek And I Find I Can Sleep When I Die

I know... I know, I know, I know. I got all caught up in editing my previous posts that I stopped posting in real-time which was so dumb of me because, as my life would have it... Everything decided to happen in the past little while. It's been probably about 2-3 weeks since I gave … Continue reading Been Chasing Dreams, But I Never Slept I Got A New Attitude And A Lease On Life And Some Peace Of Mind Seek And I Find I Can Sleep When I Die

Am I Dead? Or Is This One Of Those Dreams? Those Horrible Dreams That Seem Like They Last Forever?

So as promised, well not even promised but told to E yesterday, the kids and I called him last night to video chat. During which he proceeded to inform me that his Dad's burial is on the same day as my Grandma's. 365 days in a year, and yeppers, it'll be the same day, Aug 26th … Continue reading Am I Dead? Or Is This One Of Those Dreams? Those Horrible Dreams That Seem Like They Last Forever?

Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

I fucken messed up. Majorly. Not just something simple that I could fix with an apology. But I messed up someone's everyday living. I didn't tell the whole story about last Friday with K and I. Yes, K came over and told me he loved me for the first time. Yes, he said no strings … Continue reading Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life