Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached
Tag: loneliness
I’m Too Depressed To Go On You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone
I know. I haven't posted. I think I'm depressed. Or falling into a depression. Or word it however you want. But it is what it is. Things are just all falling to shit and as much as I'm trying my best to "stay positive" or "think good thoughts" it's hard asf when things in life … Continue reading I’m Too Depressed To Go On You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone
It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off
It has been a stressful few weeks here for me in my house. Last summer I lent my car to my sister for a minute while she was her to drive to my grandpas. Fine whatever. But she brought it back with the air conditioner broken. So I left it as is, since it was … Continue reading It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off
I Finally Understand For A Woman It Ain’t Easy Trying To Raise A Man You Always Was Committed / Ain’t A Woman Alive That Could Take My Mama’s Place
Ten years. That's a long time. But I've managed to raise Little E a whole successful ten years as of last Thursday when we celebrated his birthday. No broken bones. No stitches. No visits to the principles office at school. No drug or alcohol abuse. Just a healthy active 10 year old boy who likes … Continue reading I Finally Understand For A Woman It Ain’t Easy Trying To Raise A Man You Always Was Committed / Ain’t A Woman Alive That Could Take My Mama’s Place
I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night
I haven't just written about what's going on in my life lately. Today, my kids are attending their official last day of school. Z is done grade 1 and Little E has completed grade 4. It seems necessary to mark this occasion after the whirlwind of a season we've been through in this last little … Continue reading I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night
It’s My Birthday Song, In My Happy World I Know It’s Gonna Be A Good Day Oh Yeah, Today Is My Birthday
I'm 32. My birthday this year was what I'm assuming everything I should expect for my life from here on out. It was last Sunday, and I decided instead of wallow around at home for the day, I'd get out of the house and just basically try and forget I'm gonna be old and wrinkly … Continue reading It’s My Birthday Song, In My Happy World I Know It’s Gonna Be A Good Day Oh Yeah, Today Is My Birthday
Shawty Said The Ni**a That She With Ain’t Shit / Call Me So I Can Come And Prove It To You
So bar boy came over again. Two weekends in a row. And you know what. It was nice. Really nice. His dick is still too big and that part is annoying, but the part of having someone in my bed holding me throughout the night and waking up to morning sex and the intimacy part … Continue reading Shawty Said The Ni**a That She With Ain’t Shit / Call Me So I Can Come And Prove It To You
Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?
Today an ad popped up on my Instagram about preparing wills. This is something I have been purposefully avoiding my entire life. Not because I'm afraid to die because of death and all that jazz, but because in my will, I will undoubtedly have to name a Guardian for my kids. And I have no … Continue reading Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?
Thoughts
A few weeks ago I was laying in bed and relaxing before going to sleep and calming my breathing and thought patterns as has become my habit lately. Also something that has become part of my life is thinking of K too much. I try to avoid it as much as possible. I pushed thought … Continue reading Thoughts
I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time
Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends … Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time