So I read one more article on Kundalini this week after my awakening experience (link here) https://sahajayoga.dk/2017/09/the-three-channels-pastfuture-and-present/
It related exactly to everything I was trying to explain. How my mind seemingly split into three channels .and what each one felt like. While the article details that it can happen instantaneously, and yes it did, the flow and healing my body and mind experienced, lasted closer to 20-30 seconds before I felt I was swirled back into my individual self again.
I know it seems like I talk about this a lot now, but to be honest, my mind is always considering it now. I think that is the main focus of the awakening. To create a self that is always aware of more from that point on.
Yes, I go to work and care for my kids in the same manner as before, but in a sense it is new and fresh and I am different. I am now aware of a new connection and have a deeper knowledge. Not only am I aware of it, but it’s continually allowing me to learn the fact that my knowledge of it will forever more be growing. Learning more of the expanse of God and the creator and the presence that is always with us and connecting us. Not only am I able to know more, but it allows me to fear less. As I know have the knowledge of understanding that God leads the way. This beautiful birth of love has been created from within the depths of the soul and is constantly flourishing in a new and healthier way with each breathe I take.
It’s a beautiful way to live.
And I’m thankful each moment. Especially as someone who was prepared to die. No I was not suicidal, but it was as if life had begun to lose it’s luster. I had to dig so deep to find a purpose and a meaning and a reason. And now to see that my meaning and reason could be just to heal and feel this freedom. To feel each breath and each heartbeat. Knowing that? Knowing I’ve been sent to feel love in its fullness?
It’s all I’ve ever wanted.
And it’s perfect.
-Everything / Delirious-