I’m Too Depressed To Go On You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone

I know. I haven't posted. I think I'm depressed. Or falling into a depression. Or word it however you want. But it is what it is. Things are just all falling to shit and as much as I'm trying my best to "stay positive" or "think good thoughts" it's hard asf when things in life … Continue reading I’m Too Depressed To Go On You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone

Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It was awful. It's been awful. My seizures have been getting worse lately to the point my mom came and stayed with the kids and I for the last week because I've been having them every few days and I'm exhausted. But on Sunday, something new happened. Normally my seizures have ALWAYS happened in my … Continue reading Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

So we have been placed in isolation. Someone in Z's class has a confirmed case of Covid so last week we got a very official letter from Interior Health saying she has to self isolate until the end of day Dec 16th. Ok fine. I decided to keep Little E home as well just because … Continue reading It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

Heads up, on Little E’s iPad again so prep for an awful lay out since I’m not tech savvy enough to attempt to figure out how to fix this. Each time I click return to start a new paragraph it starts a new post instead 🤔. Okay, so last night.... last night last night last … Continue reading I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

There’s No Way I Can Save You ‘Cause I Need To Be Saved Too

Today I found myself sitting on a pile of darks while the white's spun around in the washing machine. Never in my life have I seemed so pathetic to even myself. Sinking down into a pile of dirty laundry filled with Little E's sweaty soccer uniform and dirty towels that I've used to squirt all … Continue reading There’s No Way I Can Save You ‘Cause I Need To Be Saved Too

So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

So we did it. In such a new way we achieved both a beginning and an end. At least from my perspective. Each new chance at this has been expanding my mind to new levels. Even that phrase as such is misleading now. My mind. Because once you reach this level of knowledge, you can … Continue reading So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

Each Day I Feel So Blessed To Be Looking At You ‘Cause When You Open Your Eyes, I Feel Alive

Oh my gosh! Kids are seriously the sweetest most innocent things ever created in the history of creation and I love mine to bits. I often think about posting photo's of mine here for the sake of cuteness, but well as unlikely as it seems after reading my posts, I do have limits. Anyways, in … Continue reading Each Day I Feel So Blessed To Be Looking At You ‘Cause When You Open Your Eyes, I Feel Alive

Leaving To Find My Soul Told Her I Had To Go And I Know It Ain’t Pretty When Our Hearts Get Broke

The fact that I am alive is proof enough that I am a God. No one can confirm for sure how the world started.  Not when or how or at what point, which leaves it wide open for interpretation on exactly how or why we got to this place in history or the present place … Continue reading Leaving To Find My Soul Told Her I Had To Go And I Know It Ain’t Pretty When Our Hearts Get Broke

Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely Is This The Feeling I Need To Walk With?

So I've been living here in Kelowna for 7 months. Plenty of time to get nice and settled and make  massive amounts of new friends and join plenty of clubs, classes,  activities what have you. As much as I feel at home in my house, and actually enjoy the town as a whole, basically because … Continue reading Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely Is This The Feeling I Need To Walk With?