I’m Checkin’ Out To The Heavens Above Punched In The Teeth, Teeth By Love

So, Vancouver was… well it was there. I mean we were there and back in two days so not much exciting to report. My teeth are seriously still the main event. They hurt like nobody’s business. I can’t chew to save my life still. Every time I happen to close my teeth to hard or … Continue reading I’m Checkin’ Out To The Heavens Above Punched In The Teeth, Teeth By Love

I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

So. The big phone call happened this morning. I was getting anxious on the hour leading up to it, which isn’t very normal for me. I’m a pretty calm but introverted person. But while sitting at work for the first time this morning my heart was beating faster than normal and I was having very … Continue reading I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It was awful. It's been awful. My seizures have been getting worse lately to the point my mom came and stayed with the kids and I for the last week because I've been having them every few days and I'm exhausted. But on Sunday, something new happened. Normally my seizures have ALWAYS happened in my … Continue reading Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

So I've been seizing. Lots. To much. I had a seizure once in November, which was the first one I was aware of in what I think was close to a year, then now almost constantly every two weeks since mid December. There may have been more in there that I'm not sure of but … Continue reading There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

So we have been placed in isolation. Someone in Z's class has a confirmed case of Covid so last week we got a very official letter from Interior Health saying she has to self isolate until the end of day Dec 16th. Ok fine. I decided to keep Little E home as well just because … Continue reading It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

The World Outside Looks So Unkind I’m Countin’ On You To Carry Me Through

So if you're the praying type, please pray for me. I took a detour on my way to the office this morning to gather myself. My boss let me know yesterday that conveniently he would be in the office today. It's been months since we've seen each other and now of ALL days, I'll have … Continue reading The World Outside Looks So Unkind I’m Countin’ On You To Carry Me Through

And All We Wanna Do Is Get By Today Heyyy We’re Gonna Have A Good Day And Ain’t Nobody Gotta Cry Today

I cut myself short about my day yesterday. Probably because I was so concerned about the rat and couldn't think straight. But what I also did was call a few places looking to get the kids and I in for counselling. I've realized that I've been doing so much damage to them by freaking out … Continue reading And All We Wanna Do Is Get By Today Heyyy We’re Gonna Have A Good Day And Ain’t Nobody Gotta Cry Today

I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

Can I just be honest for a minute? I mean all my posts are brutally honest but for real today... and for to long lately, I've been really struggling with feelings of deep inadequacy. Like straight STRUGGLING. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and doing well, but a person can have more than one feeling … Continue reading I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night

I haven't just written about what's going on in my life lately. Today, my kids are attending their official last day of school. Z is done grade 1 and Little E has completed grade 4. It seems necessary to mark this occasion after the whirlwind of a season we've been through in this last little … Continue reading I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night