I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

Monday I had a friend over and I got so drunk. Something I've done less than a handful of times in my entire life. Drinking is really not something I find desirable shall we say. Anyways, life has been stressing me out more than normal and so I just let it all go. Nothing crazy … Continue reading I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

I Put My Feelings On Safety So I Don’t Go Shootin’ Where Your Heart Be

Those phone calls threw me for a major loop. I've been doing my best in moving on from K. Settling in here in Kelowna, trying to forget. But those calls brought back all the memories I was trying to put behind me. All the pain and feelings of not being good enough. So I needed … Continue reading I Put My Feelings On Safety So I Don’t Go Shootin’ Where Your Heart Be

Have Old Friends And Know Our Enemies Now I-, I’m thinking Back To When I Was Young Back To The Day When I Was Falling In Love

So I got a call from prison this week. Not the prison officials themselves, but a guy on the inside. My obvious first instinct when I heard the recording "An inmate from so and so is trying to call you press 1 to accept the call" was that it was K, and that something had … Continue reading Have Old Friends And Know Our Enemies Now I-, I’m thinking Back To When I Was Young Back To The Day When I Was Falling In Love

We Need To Take It Back In Time When Music Made Us All Unite Money Can’t Buy Us Happiness Can We All Slow Down And Enjoy Right Now

Lately I've been wondering how people gather enough courage to run off and start a new life. Legitimate question in my mind. I figure now would be as good a time if any to run away, and I'm just done with my life as is. So, that being said, how do people gather the strength … Continue reading We Need To Take It Back In Time When Music Made Us All Unite Money Can’t Buy Us Happiness Can We All Slow Down And Enjoy Right Now

I Remember All The Feelings And The Day They Stopped

Last summer (2016), after I bought my own house (Yeah me!), I fell back into old habits (Boo me). Like they say, old habits die hard. I hadn't slept with anyone since I had left E almost 2.5 years ago, since I had more important things to focus on, like school and my kids and just adjusting to … Continue reading I Remember All The Feelings And The Day They Stopped

I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me To The Place I Love, Take Me All The Way

When I was 19, my body was used for the first time in ways that changed me forever. I was really good friends with this one couple, A and M.  We worked together, we went out dancing every weekend together. I was even planning on moving in with A in a few weeks because she … Continue reading I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me To The Place I Love, Take Me All The Way