Wish She Was Set Free

I just tried choking myself tonight in bed. Not even like in a sexual haha way. So life’s been like that. Definitely can’t be referred to as ‘set free’ that’s for sure. Strange shits been going down.

Don’t Ever Think That It Can’t Happen To You, You Gotta Stand On Your Own Two Win Or Lose

I got home almost a week ago. Just taking some time to absorb it all and get back into my life. I had really thought I’d be leaving the hospital with answers. Solutions. But no. Instead I have more tests to do. And more questions. The doctors haven’t outright said they are more confused than … Continue reading Don’t Ever Think That It Can’t Happen To You, You Gotta Stand On Your Own Two Win Or Lose

I Am Chosen Not Forsaken I Am Who You Say I Am You Are For Me Not Against Me

Zero. Zero chance of this thing getting a solution this time around. My neurologist came in this morning with all his groupies to do rounds and had a lot to say. Starting with the fact I do not have a usual case. My electrical activity is coming 24/7 from the right side, like even right … Continue reading I Am Chosen Not Forsaken I Am Who You Say I Am You Are For Me Not Against Me

If I Showed You My Flaws If I Couldn’t Be Strong If I Got Locked Away

Seizure Investigation Unit. S.I.U. Not quite C.S.I., which was a show I used to watch all the time on Thursday nights with my dad in my early teens. That, and then Survivor, which has a new season coming in March and I totally didn’t expect Erica to win last time around but I’m WAY off … Continue reading If I Showed You My Flaws If I Couldn’t Be Strong If I Got Locked Away

Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1

It’s just so much. I can tell you right here and now I don’t have the words to describe properly what I want to say, but I’ll start with; it’s just so much. So many feelings, to many emotions. Not necessarily good emotions either. Hate, sorrow, anger, all mixed in in such large amounts. To … Continue reading Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1

Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast

I just lost part of my most valuable piece of jewelry. As we all know I’m not a millionaire or anything close, so I don’t have a huge collection of jewelry. I have a bunch of cheap costume jewelry that was bought at places like Walmart or Superstore by my kids for Christmas over the … Continue reading Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast

The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town

We are back at home now and have been for about a week. The fire is still considered out of control at 800 hectares and I can see some of it some nights in the distance, but that is not what this post is about. As usual, something new and additionally stressful happened last week. … Continue reading The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town

If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye

😶‍🌫️ There isn’t really a good emoji to describe how I currently feel. Mainly because I currently feel suicidal. I’ve been on my new medication for two weeks exactly now, doubling the dosage one week in, and it has been messing with me. At first I thought oh I’m just not feeling myself because work … Continue reading If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye

I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again

I don’t know how people get into successful relationships nowadays. The only way I can meet someone in pandemic times is if they are a parent to the kids of your kids friends. And all of them are married and in happy relationships. So here I am, 7 years after I left my marriage and … Continue reading I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again