Have Yourself A Very Merry Christmas Let Your Heart Be Light

I had the most beautiful Christmas. Yes it was full of stress and sickness, but I think that’s a holiday for single moms everywhere. Do I realize we’re almost halfway into January by now? Obviously 🙄 but I really just took this time to be a lazy butt and nap probably every day and while … Continue reading Have Yourself A Very Merry Christmas Let Your Heart Be Light

Mama, I’m Sure I Know Why You Were Misunderstood So Now, I See Through Your Eyes All I Can Give You Is Love

So much to say/write/try to explain and not a clue where to start. A few weeks ago I got an email from the Salvation Army regarding the Christmas toy drive they do and if I would like to come ‘shop’ for the kids. I guess they had my name on their list from last year … Continue reading Mama, I’m Sure I Know Why You Were Misunderstood So Now, I See Through Your Eyes All I Can Give You Is Love

I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

Can I just be honest for a minute? I mean all my posts are brutally honest but for real today... and for to long lately, I've been really struggling with feelings of deep inadequacy. Like straight STRUGGLING. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and doing well, but a person can have more than one feeling … Continue reading I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

There’s A Time That I Remember That I Never Felt So Lost When I Felt All Of The Hatred Was To Powerful To Stop

This past weekend I packed up the kiddos and drove back to my parents house to surprise them for the weekend. It was my moms birthday on the 12th, and since we won't be back for Christmas, I figured we were due for a visit. I got the Thursday off, and Monday was a holiday … Continue reading There’s A Time That I Remember That I Never Felt So Lost When I Felt All Of The Hatred Was To Powerful To Stop

Even When The Fight Is Won / Even When My Time On Earth Is Done / Even When It Makes No Sense To Sing

Sometimes I think about how difficult it would be to be 'God' I know that's an unusual thought pattern, but have you ever considered it? What it would entail to create a whole universe? And the so far thankless job it has been? I get it. Lately people have shrunk God down to a judgmental … Continue reading Even When The Fight Is Won / Even When My Time On Earth Is Done / Even When It Makes No Sense To Sing

Handle Me? / He Put In All That Work, He Wanna Be The MVP, I Told Him Ain’t No Taming Me

So he came. Actually I came. I saw. I conquered. The bar dude I met came and spent the night this past Saturday. I have not spent an actual night with anyone since E. No sleeping over in my bed ever. It was always sex, and bye. Like unless you're gonna make the commitment to … Continue reading Handle Me? / He Put In All That Work, He Wanna Be The MVP, I Told Him Ain’t No Taming Me

So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

So we did it. In such a new way we achieved both a beginning and an end. At least from my perspective. Each new chance at this has been expanding my mind to new levels. Even that phrase as such is misleading now. My mind. Because once you reach this level of knowledge, you can … Continue reading So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

I Don’t Know Why I’m Scared ‘Cause I’ve Been Here Before Every Feeling, Every Word I’ve Imagined It All

I've come to the realization that the thoughts and sensations I've unequivocally been associating with K are still most assuredly him, but they are from our birth. From the birth of our love, when we split and began our journey into creating ourselves. In my search for who I am and where I began, I … Continue reading I Don’t Know Why I’m Scared ‘Cause I’ve Been Here Before Every Feeling, Every Word I’ve Imagined It All