I Got A Notion To Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

As it stands now, I hate Mother's Day. This will be my 7th Mother's Day, and I've yet to enjoy a single one. Yes, I've been a single parent for 3 of them already, coming up on my forth this Sunday, and I'm actually dreading it. When married to E, he never understood the whole … Continue reading I Got A Notion To Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I'd like to say that once I got back to Canada things got better fast. But that would be a complete lie. It was hard. There were so many stressful factors I didn't even consider when thinking the whole "leave E" thing through. My parents let us stay with them for which I am so … Continue reading Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

So today I was back at the airport for the first time since flying back from Kenya 3 years ago. I felt like a deja vue kinda thing happening. I had to head out there for work to meet some of the guys we'd recruited for work and it was just a causal meet and … Continue reading I Mean This Is Exhausting You Know We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

I booked flights for about 10 days out. They were the right combination of cheapest and nearest in date. Well they weren't cheap, but I just wanted to get out of there ASAP. Then, after I booked the flights and paid, I sent an email to my mom letting her know our itinerary and just … Continue reading Tell The World I’m Coming… Home Let The Rain Wash Away All The Pain Of Yesterday

Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double

I spent the next couple of days in what can only be described as a fog. I was there. I was alive. But I was definitely not thinking clearly. Everything was blurry. Fuzzy. I couldn't concentrate on any of the mundane day to day things that needed to be done. The kids needed to be … Continue reading Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now If I Go There Will Be Trouble And If I Stay It Will Be Double

The Cat Came Back The Very Next Day The Cat Came Back They Thought He Was A Goner

The drive away from my home and my life was quiet. I was doing my best to stay calm. I had my kids to worry about, and I didn't want them to sense anything was more wrong then what was blatantly obvious... Daddy had just beat up Mommy, and had packed up our things and kicked … Continue reading The Cat Came Back The Very Next Day The Cat Came Back They Thought He Was A Goner

Sunday Morning, Rain Is Falling /Clouds Are Shrouding Us In Moments Unforgettable

It was actually a bright and sunny day in Kakamega. But rain would've been a simpler reason to explain to my 3 year old son why Daddy had changed our plans for the day. It was Sunday morning, Jan 2014, and the night before E and I had decided we would take the kids into … Continue reading Sunday Morning, Rain Is Falling /Clouds Are Shrouding Us In Moments Unforgettable

I Can’t Believe Deez Ni**az Came And Tried Ta Rob Me Fo’ My Shit After All I Did Fo’ Yall, This Tha F**kin Thanks I Get

While living outside of Kakamega, Kenya, it seemed more difficult for E to adjust than for myself. New things don't scare me much, and I'm always up for talking to new people and having fresh experiences. But for E, what we didn't understand at the time (about 2013-2014) was that his schizophrenic tendencies were becoming … Continue reading I Can’t Believe Deez Ni**az Came And Tried Ta Rob Me Fo’ My Shit After All I Did Fo’ Yall, This Tha F**kin Thanks I Get