I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

Why Do I Give Valuable Time To People Who Don’t Care If I Live Or Die / In My Life Why Do I Smile At People Who I’d Much Rather Kick In The Eye?

Frustrated. I guess that would be the only way to suitably and simply describe how I'm feeling now. I'm stuck when it comes to my divorce. I feel any move I attempt to make will only be detrimental to my case and I hate that feeling. Last you heard, I had contacted my lawyer and … Continue reading Why Do I Give Valuable Time To People Who Don’t Care If I Live Or Die / In My Life Why Do I Smile At People Who I’d Much Rather Kick In The Eye?

Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do. 

Last night at dinner, Little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like … Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do. 

B*tch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

$36,408.00 That's how much E currently owes me in back pay for child support. I've been trying to sort this thing out with my lawyer for what feels like forever now, and I feel like (hopefully) we're nearing the finish line with this whole divorce. To be honest, it could've been much worse than how … Continue reading B*tch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

I Tear Myself Open I Sew Myself Shut / Our Scars Remind Us That the Past Is Real. 

My biggest physical scar is from E. We had been apart for about 9 months due to his immigration issues. So he was stuck in Kenya and I had had to come back to Canada to support us and Little E. I sent E money every week for his rent and groceries and whatever else … Continue reading I Tear Myself Open I Sew Myself Shut / Our Scars Remind Us That the Past Is Real. 

This Thing Turned Out So Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised 

Filing for divorce was not an easy process. I had some time when I got back to Canada to sort out what I was going to do and how I was going to do it, because E was away at work. He worked at a camp in a remote area so I didn't have to worry about … Continue reading This Thing Turned Out So Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised 

Sunday Morning, Rain Is Falling /Clouds Are Shrouding Us In Moments Unforgettable

It was actually a bright and sunny day in Kakamega. But rain would've been a simpler reason to explain to my 3 year old son why Daddy had changed our plans for the day. It was Sunday morning, Jan 2014, and the night before E and I had decided we would take the kids into … Continue reading Sunday Morning, Rain Is Falling /Clouds Are Shrouding Us In Moments Unforgettable

I Can’t Believe Deez Ni**az Came And Tried Ta Rob Me Fo’ My Shit After All I Did Fo’ Yall, This Tha F**kin Thanks I Get

While living outside of Kakamega, Kenya, it seemed more difficult for E to adjust than for myself. New things don't scare me much, and I'm always up for talking to new people and having fresh experiences. But for E, what we didn't understand at the time (about 2013-2014) was that his schizophrenic tendencies were becoming … Continue reading I Can’t Believe Deez Ni**az Came And Tried Ta Rob Me Fo’ My Shit After All I Did Fo’ Yall, This Tha F**kin Thanks I Get