So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is … Continue reading I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears
Yesterday out of the blue E sent a text to see how the kids are and to ask me to say hi to them. They haven't really talked much in months, and the last time they saw him was at Christmas. By now, I thought I was over E. and as far as our relationship … Continue reading I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face
Today I had another honest conversation with my kids. I asked them how they would feel if they never had a 'dad'. Like if we just always remained a family of three. How pretty much they've always known it. I told them I've come to the realization that for myself, men cause me a distraction, … Continue reading Eventually If It Was Meant To Be, Then It Would Be ‘Cause We Related, Physically And Mentally / Boy, I Tell You, I Miss Her
Today I learned/taught myself a very valuable lesson. Over the past few days I've overheard my kids conspiring together about their great master plan for today. The great previously dreaded Mother's Day. But as I let them go off in secret together to plan whatever it was they were planning, or even to overhear them … Continue reading There’s No Way I Can Pay You Back But The Plan Is To Show You That I Understand You Are Appreciated
Today an ad popped up on my Instagram about preparing wills. This is something I have been purposefully avoiding my entire life. Not because I'm afraid to die because of death and all that jazz, but because in my will, I will undoubtedly have to name a Guardian for my kids. And I have no … Continue reading Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?
Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends … Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time
Real quick personal post.... hahaha which of my posts aren't personal, this whole blog is my life story lol. But anyways quick is my point. I've made a semi dedicated goal (let's get real, all my goals are half assed, but let's see where this one gets me) to get more in shape. Not a … Continue reading I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home
2019. Here I am. Taken me a while to.... not necessarily find the time to do this recap of the last year of my life, but more specifically find the desire to share what I've accomplished and overcome as well as my shortcomings in 2018. So where to start. I guess the most obvious place … Continue reading Callin It Quits Now Baby I’m A Wreck
1,652 days from the day I got married and the day I decided to leave E. (Better than 72 days but still not impressive by any means) 1,762 days from the day I left and started this whole divorce process until yesterday, the day I got that email I thought would never come saying: In … Continue reading My Mind Runs Wild To Comprehend What No Mind On Earth Could Understand
So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.