Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached
😶🌫️ There isn’t really a good emoji to describe how I currently feel. Mainly because I currently feel suicidal. I’ve been on my new medication for two weeks exactly now, doubling the dosage one week in, and it has been messing with me. At first I thought oh I’m just not feeling myself because work … Continue reading If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye
I know. I haven't posted. I think I'm depressed. Or falling into a depression. Or word it however you want. But it is what it is. Things are just all falling to shit and as much as I'm trying my best to "stay positive" or "think good thoughts" it's hard asf when things in life … Continue reading I’m Too Depressed To Go On You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone
It has been a stressful few weeks here for me in my house. Last summer I lent my car to my sister for a minute while she was her to drive to my grandpas. Fine whatever. But she brought it back with the air conditioner broken. So I left it as is, since it was … Continue reading It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off
A few weeks ago I was laying in bed and relaxing before going to sleep and calming my breathing and thought patterns as has become my habit lately. Also something that has become part of my life is thinking of K too much. I try to avoid it as much as possible. I pushed thought … Continue reading Thoughts
How to explain the unexplainable. Sunday night I made homemade spaghetti and meatballs with ceaser salad for dinner and the kids loved it. Everything was all good. So I decided to send the leftovers with them to daycare for lunch the next day. I asked Z to get out 2 containers for me to divide … Continue reading I Wake Up In The Basement I’m So Hungry/ I Must Be Here Sleepwalking
I went to Wal-Mart last week and found this for Z's room (see previous post for reference) Yes, I know the hair is covered which kinda defeats the purpose, but my options were limited and it was better than nothing. Next I went to the dollar store intent on buying gold paint to redo her … Continue reading My Shadow’s The Only One That Walks Beside Me
So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.
Hello all. Thanks for taking the time out of your lives over the last year and a bit to learn about mine. Unfortunately life is just to shitty to even find the desire to write and update you guys anymore so I've decided to shutdown the whole blogging part of who I am for now. … Continue reading The End
I've come to the understanding within myself that I'm not where I'd like to be in my life. Which, on it's own is not that big a deal you'd think right? Just go out and change, or get what you want etc. and you'd be all good C right? Except that where I want to … Continue reading Why’d You Have To Wait? Where Were You? Just A Little Late You Found Me Why’d You Have To Wait To Find Me?