Its Been Forever And I Can’t Forget You With Every Single Day, It Won’t Go Away

I haven't forgotten about you. It would be impossible though all this pain. As you twist my body in the midst of the night. Pulling me from within and dragging my innards inside out. Ripping whatever dignity I had left and leaving them to rot wherever you discard them. No. I haven't forgotten you. In … Continue reading Its Been Forever And I Can’t Forget You With Every Single Day, It Won’t Go Away →

I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time

Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends … Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time →

I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home

Real quick personal post.... hahaha which of my posts aren't personal, this whole blog is my life story lol. But anyways quick is my point. I've made a semi dedicated goal (let's get real, all my goals are half assed, but let's see where this one gets me) to get more in shape. Not a … Continue reading I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home →

It’s The End Of The World As We Know It, And I Feel Fine

When you sit back and think about it, we all had to come from somewhere. Someone somehow we are all connected. I know it's not a thought we all consider on the daily, but logically, this earth didn't just appear yesterday functioning at this level of consciousness and efficiency that we are at today. Which … Continue reading It’s The End Of The World As We Know It, And I Feel Fine →

I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

Monday I had a friend over and I got so drunk. Something I've done less than a handful of times in my entire life. Drinking is really not something I find desirable shall we say. Anyways, life has been stressing me out more than normal and so I just let it all go. Nothing crazy … Continue reading I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself →

So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.

So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die. →

Cause We Dope Girls We Flawless, We The Poster Girls For All This / I’m Feelin’ Myself

The dreaded swimsuit. I have put off buying a new bathing suit for myself for years (no exaggeration) because like the majority of females, I hate it. Pure and simple. Last time I attempted to take my kids swimming a few months ago, my halter style suit's neck strap broke while I was getting it … Continue reading Cause We Dope Girls We Flawless, We The Poster Girls For All This / I’m Feelin’ Myself →

You’ve Got To Know When To Hold ‘Em Know When To Fold ‘Em Know When To Walk Away And Know When To Run

So the house deal fell through. Which for me, isn't the worst thing. Once we got our hands on the Condo documents, we noticed that there was no reserve fund AT ALL. So instead of the board planning in advance for things that will eventually need to be replaced, and accruing the money for it … Continue reading You’ve Got To Know When To Hold ‘Em Know When To Fold ‘Em Know When To Walk Away And Know When To Run →

I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground

My Grandpa has been calling. I haven't answer the phone because, well because I didn't want to talk to him. He first left a voicemail maybe 2 weeks ago now. But this morning when my phone rang, I didn't recognize the number so I picked up. Turns out, he had got in touch with his … Continue reading I Got Just One Life In A World That Keeps On Pushin’ Me Around But I’ll Stand My Ground →

I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No

So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got … Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No →