No Strings Attached

Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached

Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1

It’s just so much. I can tell you right here and now I don’t have the words to describe properly what I want to say, but I’ll start with; it’s just so much. So many feelings, to many emotions. Not necessarily good emotions either. Hate, sorrow, anger, all mixed in in such large amounts. To … Continue reading Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1

Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast

I just lost part of my most valuable piece of jewelry. As we all know I’m not a millionaire or anything close, so I don’t have a huge collection of jewelry. I have a bunch of cheap costume jewelry that was bought at places like Walmart or Superstore by my kids for Christmas over the … Continue reading Staring At The Bottom Of Your Glass Hoping One Day You’ll Make A Dream Last But Dreams Come Slow, And They Go So Fast

The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town

We are back at home now and have been for about a week. The fire is still considered out of control at 800 hectares and I can see some of it some nights in the distance, but that is not what this post is about. As usual, something new and additionally stressful happened last week. … Continue reading The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round All Through The Town

She’s On Fire, Put Her Out, As A Matter Of Fact, Take Her Out, Cause She’s On Fire

Just when I thought things couldn’t possibly get any worse for a single person in one lifetime… like common God, this happens: I put the kids to bed last night and crawled into bed myself so excited for a week off planning to do absolutely NOTHING for this upcoming week, when I started to do … Continue reading She’s On Fire, Put Her Out, As A Matter Of Fact, Take Her Out, Cause She’s On Fire

I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

So. The big phone call happened this morning. I was getting anxious on the hour leading up to it, which isn’t very normal for me. I’m a pretty calm but introverted person. But while sitting at work for the first time this morning my heart was beating faster than normal and I was having very … Continue reading I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It was awful. It's been awful. My seizures have been getting worse lately to the point my mom came and stayed with the kids and I for the last week because I've been having them every few days and I'm exhausted. But on Sunday, something new happened. Normally my seizures have ALWAYS happened in my … Continue reading Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

It's my birthday. I have successfully lived 33 years. Well, I've lived 33 years. How successful I've done it can be left up for debate. I woke up sick this morning. I haven't really been sick in years but of course it would be today. A day I was actually trying to look forward to. … Continue reading From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

Can I just be honest for a minute? I mean all my posts are brutally honest but for real today... and for to long lately, I've been really struggling with feelings of deep inadequacy. Like straight STRUGGLING. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and doing well, but a person can have more than one feeling … Continue reading I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying