I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

So. The big phone call happened this morning. I was getting anxious on the hour leading up to it, which isn’t very normal for me. I’m a pretty calm but introverted person. But while sitting at work for the first time this morning my heart was beating faster than normal and I was having very … Continue reading I’ll Be Your ChauffeurDrive You To A Distant Shore Fill The Tank With Gas And Dreams

Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

It was awful. It's been awful. My seizures have been getting worse lately to the point my mom came and stayed with the kids and I for the last week because I've been having them every few days and I'm exhausted. But on Sunday, something new happened. Normally my seizures have ALWAYS happened in my … Continue reading Hang On Don’t Let Yourself Go ‘Cause Everybody Cries Everybody Hurts Sometimes Sometimes Everything Is Wrong

From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

It's my birthday. I have successfully lived 33 years. Well, I've lived 33 years. How successful I've done it can be left up for debate. I woke up sick this morning. I haven't really been sick in years but of course it would be today. A day I was actually trying to look forward to. … Continue reading From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

Can I just be honest for a minute? I mean all my posts are brutally honest but for real today... and for to long lately, I've been really struggling with feelings of deep inadequacy. Like straight STRUGGLING. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and doing well, but a person can have more than one feeling … Continue reading I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

It’s My Party, And I’ll Cry If I Want To Cry If I Want To, Cry If I Want To You Would Cry Too If It Happened To You

I just woke up from the most ridiculous dream. Actually more like a nightmare if it were to ever occur in real life. My kids birthdays are coming up soon. Their birthdays are 9 days apart and so normally we celebrate together with one party which both are still fine with. Since the party will … Continue reading It’s My Party, And I’ll Cry If I Want To Cry If I Want To, Cry If I Want To You Would Cry Too If It Happened To You

My Mama Loves, She Loves Me She Gets Down On Her Knees And Hugs Me She Loves Me Like A Rock She Rocks Me Like The Rock Of Ages

Totally not the topic of my post but I’m at Starbucks writing this morning, since I’m meeting with a friend. Normally when I come and write here, I order my drink in a porcelain cup, you know to save the environment and not use a plastic cup and lid. So I order as per usual, … Continue reading My Mama Loves, She Loves Me She Gets Down On Her Knees And Hugs Me She Loves Me Like A Rock She Rocks Me Like The Rock Of Ages

Stay With Me Let’s Just Breathe / Did I Say That I Need You? Did I Say That I Want You?

My, oh my. Work this week was... interesting to say the very least. So to give some context (not that it makes what happened better, but you’ll understand more) I work in a small office. A very small office. Just myself, my coworker J, and my boss A. A’s wife comes in maybe once a … Continue reading Stay With Me Let’s Just Breathe / Did I Say That I Need You? Did I Say That I Want You?

I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

Heads up, on Little E’s iPad again so prep for an awful lay out since I’m not tech savvy enough to attempt to figure out how to fix this. Each time I click return to start a new paragraph it starts a new post instead 🤔. Okay, so last night.... last night last night last … Continue reading I Heard Her Praying / And The Tears That She Shed Still They Still Linger In My Head

Don’t Hide Yourself In Regret Just Love Yourself And You’re Set

My cousin is in town on vacation this weekend with her boyfriend, and so they'll be over in the next hour or so to chill at the beach. Cool. I've only met the guy less than a handful of times and as a person he seems great. He's kind, attentive treats her well and can … Continue reading Don’t Hide Yourself In Regret Just Love Yourself And You’re Set

I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face

Yesterday out of the blue E sent a text to see how the kids are and to ask me to say hi to them. They haven't really talked much in months, and the last time they saw him was at Christmas. By now, I thought I was over E. and as far as our relationship … Continue reading I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face