No Strings Attached

Just because you said no strings attached Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made And now broken. Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away. Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok. Like you didn’t make a huge mistake. Or dig a mass grave For the … Continue reading No Strings Attached

If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye

😶‍🌫️ There isn’t really a good emoji to describe how I currently feel. Mainly because I currently feel suicidal. I’ve been on my new medication for two weeks exactly now, doubling the dosage one week in, and it has been messing with me. At first I thought oh I’m just not feeling myself because work … Continue reading If Somebody Asked How We Died You Look Them Straight In The Eye

I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again

I don’t know how people get into successful relationships nowadays. The only way I can meet someone in pandemic times is if they are a parent to the kids of your kids friends. And all of them are married and in happy relationships. So here I am, 7 years after I left my marriage and … Continue reading I Talk To You Every Now And Then I Never Felt So Alone Again

‘Cause If You Like The Way You Look That Much Oh Baby, You Should Go And Love Yourself

So, I've downloaded a new dating app. 🤦🏻‍♀️. But each new picture that come up I'm looking at and asking myself would I want this guys dick inside me? And it's become an automatic swipe no. So it's really just become a thing to do to pass time and not really anything I expect to … Continue reading ‘Cause If You Like The Way You Look That Much Oh Baby, You Should Go And Love Yourself

I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night

I haven't just written about what's going on in my life lately. Today, my kids are attending their official last day of school. Z is done grade 1 and Little E has completed grade 4. It seems necessary to mark this occasion after the whirlwind of a season we've been through in this last little … Continue reading I Hope You Both Feel The Sparks By The End Of The Drive I Hope You Know She’s The One By The End Of The Night

Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?

Today an ad popped up on my Instagram about preparing wills. This is something I have been purposefully avoiding my entire life. Not because I'm afraid to die because of death and all that jazz, but because in my will, I will undoubtedly have to name a Guardian for my kids. And I have no … Continue reading Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?

Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely Is This The Feeling I Need To Walk With?

So I've been living here in Kelowna for 7 months. Plenty of time to get nice and settled and make  massive amounts of new friends and join plenty of clubs, classes,  activities what have you. As much as I feel at home in my house, and actually enjoy the town as a whole, basically because … Continue reading Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely Is This The Feeling I Need To Walk With?

I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home

Real quick personal post.... hahaha which of my posts aren't personal, this whole blog is my life story lol. But anyways quick is my point. I've made a semi dedicated goal (let's get real, all my goals are half assed, but let's see where this one gets me) to get more in shape. Not a … Continue reading I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home

I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

Monday I had a friend over and I got so drunk. Something I've done less than a handful of times in my entire life. Drinking is really not something I find desirable shall we say. Anyways, life has been stressing me out more than normal and so I just let it all go. Nothing crazy … Continue reading I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself