I’m Going Deep, In Over My Head I Want To Be Caught In The Rush, Lost In The Flow, In Over My Head I Want To Go

So I got an unexpected call today. I was at work at the swimming pool called me. Little E was on a field trip (and will be on the same one for the next three Wednesday's) for swimming lessons. They spend 30 minutes for lessons and then have 30 minutes for free time. Well, they … Continue reading I’m Going Deep, In Over My Head I Want To Be Caught In The Rush, Lost In The Flow, In Over My Head I Want To Go

I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

Monday I had a friend over and I got so drunk. Something I've done less than a handful of times in my entire life. Drinking is really not something I find desirable shall we say. Anyways, life has been stressing me out more than normal and so I just let it all go. Nothing crazy … Continue reading I Find Myself Longing For Change And In The Bad Times I Fear Myself

So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.

So it's here. That's time of the day when the kids have gone to sleep and the lunches are packed and the house is clean because I spent all day vacuuming (I even did between/under the couch cushions) and mopping and scrubbing. All three loads of laundry are clean and folded and even put away. … Continue reading So Please Help Them With Your Youth, They Seek The Truth Before They Can Die.

This Life Is Filled With Hurt When Happiness Doesn’t Work Trust Me, And Take My Hand When The Lights Go Out, You’ll Understand

I haven't been on top of my writing, I know. For starters, life has been intense this past while, which I'll try to delve into in a later post. But also, I've been having seizures so often now that I just don't have the energy or strength to write. I'd prefer to spend all my … Continue reading This Life Is Filled With Hurt When Happiness Doesn’t Work Trust Me, And Take My Hand When The Lights Go Out, You’ll Understand

I’m Not Angry, I’m Just Saying Sometimes Goodbye Is A Second Chance

So where to begin. I feel like ranting about every little thing in my life, which I won't, however easy it would be. My lawyer contacted me saying E didn't actually sign the papers like he said he did (which I think I mentioned already). On top of that, he denied me ever telling/discussing the … Continue reading I’m Not Angry, I’m Just Saying Sometimes Goodbye Is A Second Chance

And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

I refuse to watch 13 Reasons Why. As someone who has attempted suicide myself, on more than one occasion, and obviously failed (self high-five), I don't feel I need to know someone else's reasons behind killing themselves, or whatever else happens on that show. Do I think it's a good show for people to watch … Continue reading And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

This Thing Turned Out So Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised 

Filing for divorce was not an easy process. I had some time when I got back to Canada to sort out what I was going to do and how I was going to do it, because E was away at work. He worked at a camp in a remote area so I didn't have to worry about … Continue reading This Thing Turned Out So Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised