There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

So I've been seizing. Lots. To much. I had a seizure once in November, which was the first one I was aware of in what I think was close to a year, then now almost constantly every two weeks since mid December. There may have been more in there that I'm not sure of but … Continue reading There Is A Headache In My Head A Pulse In My Brain Nothing Will Ever Change

It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

So we have been placed in isolation. Someone in Z's class has a confirmed case of Covid so last week we got a very official letter from Interior Health saying she has to self isolate until the end of day Dec 16th. Ok fine. I decided to keep Little E home as well just because … Continue reading It Takes A Whole Village To Raise One Child We All Everyone Must Share The Burden

The World Outside Looks So Unkind I’m Countin’ On You To Carry Me Through

So if you're the praying type, please pray for me. I took a detour on my way to the office this morning to gather myself. My boss let me know yesterday that conveniently he would be in the office today. It's been months since we've seen each other and now of ALL days, I'll have … Continue reading The World Outside Looks So Unkind I’m Countin’ On You To Carry Me Through

And All We Wanna Do Is Get By Today Heyyy We’re Gonna Have A Good Day And Ain’t Nobody Gotta Cry Today

I cut myself short about my day yesterday. Probably because I was so concerned about the rat and couldn't think straight. But what I also did was call a few places looking to get the kids and I in for counselling. I've realized that I've been doing so much damage to them by freaking out … Continue reading And All We Wanna Do Is Get By Today Heyyy We’re Gonna Have A Good Day And Ain’t Nobody Gotta Cry Today

‘Cause If You Like The Way You Look That Much Oh Baby, You Should Go And Love Yourself

So, I've downloaded a new dating app. 🤦🏻‍♀️. But each new picture that come up I'm looking at and asking myself would I want this guys dick inside me? And it's become an automatic swipe no. So it's really just become a thing to do to pass time and not really anything I expect to … Continue reading ‘Cause If You Like The Way You Look That Much Oh Baby, You Should Go And Love Yourself

From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

It's my birthday. I have successfully lived 33 years. Well, I've lived 33 years. How successful I've done it can be left up for debate. I woke up sick this morning. I haven't really been sick in years but of course it would be today. A day I was actually trying to look forward to. … Continue reading From Good Friends And True, From Old Friends And New, May Good Luck Go With You, And Happiness Too

It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off

It has been a stressful few weeks here for me in my house. Last summer I lent my car to my sister for a minute while she was her to drive to my grandpas. Fine whatever. But she brought it back with the air conditioner broken. So I left it as is, since it was … Continue reading It’s Gettin’ Hot In Herre, So Take Off All Your Clothes I Am, Gettin’ So Hot, I Wanna Take My Clothes Off

I Finally Understand For A Woman It Ain’t Easy Trying To Raise A Man You Always Was Committed / Ain’t A Woman Alive That Could Take My Mama’s Place

Ten years. That's a long time. But I've managed to raise Little E a whole successful ten years as of last Thursday when we celebrated his birthday. No broken bones. No stitches. No visits to the principles office at school. No drug or alcohol abuse. Just a healthy active 10 year old boy who likes … Continue reading I Finally Understand For A Woman It Ain’t Easy Trying To Raise A Man You Always Was Committed / Ain’t A Woman Alive That Could Take My Mama’s Place

I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying

Can I just be honest for a minute? I mean all my posts are brutally honest but for real today... and for to long lately, I've been really struggling with feelings of deep inadequacy. Like straight STRUGGLING. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and doing well, but a person can have more than one feeling … Continue reading I’ve Been Here Before A Few Times And I’m Quite Aware We’re Dying