Just because you said no strings attached
Doesn’t mean the bonds weren’t already made
And now broken.
Painfully torn from the depths of my heart when you walked away.
Just because you said the words doesn’t just make it seem ok.
Like you didn’t make a huge mistake.
Or dig a mass grave
For the mass amounts of emotions I had to dump in when you walked away.
You never even looked back to see if I was alright.
To see if I was able to pick all the bits and pieces of myself off the floor
The ones that had broken off from me when you walked away.
Because I haven’t been alright in any way shape or form since that day.
I haven’t pieced myself together or grieved or done the grave right since that time you walked away
It wasn’t that I was always fighting with you
Sometimes we were both just having a bad day
It wasn’t that I didn’t understand you
Sometimes I understood to much and it made you feel different than ever before
It wasn’t that the sex was bad
Hell no it was amazing and we pressed each other to depths we’d never been
And maybe that’s why you walked away
Because new and deep can be different and confusing, but I thought we were doing it together.
But instead you walked away
So I hope where you walked to is ok
Better than where you were here with me
Because I’m trying to heal, but it gets weirder each day.
The extremes are more each way.
Goods are fantastic. But the bads are revolutionary
And just when we needed each other more, you walked away.
And I’m sure you won’t walk back but I don’t know what to say to a man who walked away.
We weren’t perfect in anyway, but my dreams won’t give me rest.
I wake up everyday from another life where we live the finest
Where everyday you stay and enjoy and we grow first and foremost peerless
In this world I fight against it. Trying to move on and close the grave, but my dreams, no my nightmares persist
That we together are the greatest.
But I know. I think I know. That I can’t achieve the best.
With a man who walked away.