Here We Are Now, Entertain Us I Feel Stupid And Contagious

So it's happening. Little E is growing up, and I can tell by his less than pleasurable aroma that has been filling the house lately. Yesterday we went to buy his first stick of deodorant. Hand to my heart we were in the pit stick aisle for no less than 10 minutes smelling every different … Continue reading Here We Are Now, Entertain Us I Feel Stupid And Contagious

I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face

Yesterday out of the blue E sent a text to see how the kids are and to ask me to say hi to them. They haven't really talked much in months, and the last time they saw him was at Christmas. By now, I thought I was over E. and as far as our relationship … Continue reading I Got Boy Problems That’s The Human In Me / Don’t Text Me, Tell It Straight To My Face

Who Cares What They See? Who Cares What They Know? Your First Name Is Free Last Name Is Dom

So I've been really inactive sexually this last year and a half since K and I stopped. I saw a few guys once (like I do/did) but it was such a joke with them, that I didn't even let them kiss me, although not for lack of trying on their part. Anyways, my toys and … Continue reading Who Cares What They See? Who Cares What They Know? Your First Name Is Free Last Name Is Dom

You Should Know I Wanna Make Sure I’m Right, Before I Let Go / You Know There’s Nothing I Would Not Do Before I Let Go

Last night I entered a new void. Where everything, past and present regarding my perception came out before me and all that remained as 'me' was the singular piece of knowledge that I was C. Every other thought I had ever had, every conversation that I'd ever taken been a part of was placed before … Continue reading You Should Know I Wanna Make Sure I’m Right, Before I Let Go / You Know There’s Nothing I Would Not Do Before I Let Go

If U Suckaz Got A Problem, Feel A Way Wit How I Act Imma Show U Where I’m From, Imma Show U Where I’m At

So this is out of the ordinary for me, but new is we have to make changes to move forward right? Northside - Lex Talionis My friend has made an amazing new song and I've decided to link it here for a few reasons. It's a passionate and powerful song, and while I have to … Continue reading If U Suckaz Got A Problem, Feel A Way Wit How I Act Imma Show U Where I’m From, Imma Show U Where I’m At

Eventually If It Was Meant To Be, Then It Would Be ‘Cause We Related, Physically And Mentally / Boy, I Tell You, I Miss Her

Today I had another honest conversation with my kids. I asked them how they would feel if they never had a 'dad'. Like if we just always remained a family of three. How pretty much they've always known it. I told them I've come to the realization that for myself, men cause me a distraction, … Continue reading Eventually If It Was Meant To Be, Then It Would Be ‘Cause We Related, Physically And Mentally / Boy, I Tell You, I Miss Her

I Don’t Know Why I’m Scared ‘Cause I’ve Been Here Before Every Feeling, Every Word I’ve Imagined It All

I've come to the realization that the thoughts and sensations I've unequivocally been associating with K are still most assuredly him, but they are from our birth. From the birth of our love, when we split and began our journey into creating ourselves. In my search for who I am and where I began, I … Continue reading I Don’t Know Why I’m Scared ‘Cause I’ve Been Here Before Every Feeling, Every Word I’ve Imagined It All