I’m At A Payphone Trying To Call Home All Of My Change I Spent On You/Baby It’s All Wrong Where Are The Plans We Made For Two

Nothing. They say no news is good news, but that's the biggest pile of shit ever. It's only been like just over 48 hours, so I'm trying to be patient, but I guess it's not a strong point of mine. I started off my day yesterday researching where to even start looking for where to … Continue reading I’m At A Payphone Trying To Call Home All Of My Change I Spent On You/Baby It’s All Wrong Where Are The Plans We Made For Two

Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

I fucken messed up. Majorly. Not just something simple that I could fix with an apology. But I messed up someone's everyday living. I didn't tell the whole story about last Friday with K and I. Yes, K came over and told me he loved me for the first time. Yes, he said no strings … Continue reading Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done

So I took the kids to the park yesterday and as Z went off on the slide, Little E and I had our "conversation" The whole "Why doesn't Dad live with us?" question that he had asked me earlier in the day... I thought I had mentally prepped my answer, thought it through, and I … Continue reading Mama She Has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s An Open Book Don’t Close It ‘Fore It’s Done

By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta Do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share. My Grandma apparently specified that all the … Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta Do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Now

Because He Loves You Cheeseburger With All His Heart

This morning Little E asked if he could make pancakes for himself and Z for breakfast. I figured no big deal, I had bought some frozen pre-made (fancy I know) pancakes a few weeks ago and they hadn't had a chance to eat them yet. So since Little E normally makes the two of them breakfast he set about … Continue reading Because He Loves You Cheeseburger With All His Heart

If Your Not The One For Me Why Do I Hate The Idea Of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is … Continue reading If Your Not The One For Me Why Do I Hate The Idea Of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

They Know I Have No Choice But To Show My Secret Identity 

I get nervous when I look at my stats. Today someONE in Canada has  been really interested in my blog, reading every post I've ever written. And while that would be flattering in any other country, it makes me anxious. What if it's someone I know? Or who knows me? Who finds my story so … Continue reading They Know I Have No Choice But To Show My Secret Identity 

To Be In Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Have you ever been in a relationship or just a friendship where you felt like they were your everything and you were just 'something' to them... at best? Or where you can't be with them because of a dumb or made up reason and you find yourself always having to contain your feelings/emotions for them … Continue reading To Be In Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Promiscuous Girl You’re Teasing Me You Know What I What And I Got What You Need 

K, I originally wrote this yesterday while waiting to meet my friends for lunch, when my whole WordPress crashed and I lost the entire fucking post. I was choked. So sorry if it's not as "good" as normal, but I'm really just moody about having to redo it. 😒.  This morning I met a friend … Continue reading Promiscuous Girl You’re Teasing Me You Know What I What And I Got What You Need 

Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do. 

Last night at dinner, Little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like … Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna Be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow And Have A Good Life. I’m Gonna Do What I Got To Do.