You Know I Say That I Am Better Now/ Cause Your Not Around

So here I am. Weeks later? Months? I can’t remember. But to save you from reading this whole post, I’ve gotten a *much* better job. From the morning my boss A called, things felt desperate. I was so concerned that I wouldn’t be able to find a new job in time that would support the … Continue reading You Know I Say That I Am Better Now/ Cause Your Not Around

Take This Job And Shove It I Ain’t Working Here No More You Better Not Try To Stand In My Way As I’m A’walking Out The Door

Things just escalated with my boss to a point of no return. Everyday for the following week (and still now, but for the posts sake, the following week) he went about changing things around the office. Not even for the better but literally so he could control things more. All I’m thinking is bro, you … Continue reading Take This Job And Shove It I Ain’t Working Here No More You Better Not Try To Stand In My Way As I’m A’walking Out The Door

It’s Like The More Money We Come Across The More Problems We See

I received an annoying email from my boss this morning and have been in a bitchy mood since. First off it was @ 8 something on a Saturday morning. Slow your roll ding dong. Nothing good work related happens that early on the weekend. Next I see the subject line ‘Status quo for now’ and … Continue reading It’s Like The More Money We Come Across The More Problems We See

When You Feel So Tired But You Can’t Sleep Stuck In Reverse

I guess a depression is the simplest way to describe it. But it’s not simple. There are so many layers to it. I’m exhausted. I feel like everything is overwhelming. I use earplugs constantly because just people talking to me is to much stimulation lately. My kids walking on the floor like regular human beings … Continue reading When You Feel So Tired But You Can’t Sleep Stuck In Reverse

I Never Thought I’d Die Alone Another 6 Months I’ll Be Unknown / I Never Conquered

You know when your feeling sad or depressed and so you turn on sad depressing music to get way in your feelings? That’s where I’m at. Like I said, the doctor doesn’t know how to solve my problems right now, so he’s decided to drug me up. And as we all know from last summer … Continue reading I Never Thought I’d Die Alone Another 6 Months I’ll Be Unknown / I Never Conquered

Don’t Ever Think That It Can’t Happen To You, You Gotta Stand On Your Own Two Win Or Lose

I got home almost a week ago. Just taking some time to absorb it all and get back into my life. I had really thought I’d be leaving the hospital with answers. Solutions. But no. Instead I have more tests to do. And more questions. The doctors haven’t outright said they are more confused than … Continue reading Don’t Ever Think That It Can’t Happen To You, You Gotta Stand On Your Own Two Win Or Lose

I Am Chosen Not Forsaken I Am Who You Say I Am You Are For Me Not Against Me

Zero. Zero chance of this thing getting a solution this time around. My neurologist came in this morning with all his groupies to do rounds and had a lot to say. Starting with the fact I do not have a usual case. My electrical activity is coming 24/7 from the right side, like even right … Continue reading I Am Chosen Not Forsaken I Am Who You Say I Am You Are For Me Not Against Me

Shake, Shake Your Body And The Blood Begins To Boil

4. I had four seizures overnight, and so this is a late post since I’ve spent most of the day sleeping between checkins and reapplying the leads I pulled out etc. I don’t remember the first actual seizure happening but shortly after the nurse came in and I had only been sleeping about 30 minutes … Continue reading Shake, Shake Your Body And The Blood Begins To Boil